Some ways down the road

Some of them changed,
some of them have not,
some of them will change,
some of them will not.

Some changed only for me,
some changed only for you,
some never changed,
whatever you do,
some will never change,
forever cold and stubborn,
maybe you cared too much,
that changed the you in them.

I have changed and so have you,
take sometime and think this through,
does it frighten you or does it make you happy,
that you change so effortlessly.

Some will change silently and others violently,
but I know everything will change,
or so I think I do,
some ways down the road,
I might change my opinion too.


~Visa

Just saying

Nobody actually knows anything! What seems as knowledge, is but a construct of the human mind itself. It is a manifestation of what seems to be the driving force behind everything. This very driving force eludes us, it is beyond our imaginative capabilities. We, who are in-fact a part of this manifestation,are beaten by the size of it.

The Roots

Chapter-1             
There was nothing, I could not see anything, there was no warmth nor was there any chill, I could not hear anything nor could I feel the silence pressing upon.
My thoughts were my only companion, these too had a strange form of their own, I was not thinking in any language, what I was going through was pure emotion, bouts of happiness, anger, feelings of affection, sadness and many more for which I have no words to describe, these feelings though were not directed at anyone or anything. These waves of emotion took a while to die down, for which I had to focus my concentration on the question of WHERE AM I?
I tried to open my eyes, I wasn’t sure if I even had eyes, I couldn't feel any weight, am I in space? I wondered; my thoughts more concrete. Well, if I were in space how did I get here? to answer that, where was I before this?…WHERE WAS I?
I could feel the weight of an immense consciousness pressing upon me, feeding me these thoughts but I couldn’t connect to it. I could not find any memory. It was a complete void, I had only questions and no answers. But, have I asked all the questions yet?
I tried hard to remember again but to no avail, all the memory I had was that of being in this vacuum,trying to open my eyes and whatever occurred since then. What is left for me to ask?
The answer in the form of yet another question popped up WHAT AM I? The unknown and immeasurable consciousness does seem to help me but in a very limited way of feeding me these thoughts. The thoughts which only raise more questions. As I was thinking, there was a flurry of shapes in-front of me . The shapes were unrecognizable, they did not make any sense they were as good as my void. But I could make out that they were distinct shapes all different from each other.
I kept wondering. I figured it was futile trying to answer these three questions.Oh! three?, now I had an understanding of numbers?, not aware if this was my own knowledge or what is being served to me, I kept counting to see if there was an end until I was disturbed by a jolt. The jolt had almost broken my stream of thoughts. I was now more aware of my being.  I had many thoughts running parallelly now, much of it a blur, some threads of it were constrained and guided, some of them were unbridled and random. I felt the weight of my own conscious it was still miniscule compared to the overbearing one that keeps puzzling me.
There was yet another Jolt, this was stronger, much stronger, the emotions started rippling again. The connection with the consciousness was becoming weaker now. I did not want to be stuck in that formless hollow null again. but what hope do I have? I don’t know where I am?, I don't know where I was? I don’t know what or who I am?, all I had was this particular experience and the one drive to find the purpose of my being.
How did it all start……Eyes…I was trying to open my eyes…..Just as I thought this was a string with which I could answer my questions. The words and thoughts along with any significance they had vanished, the memory of my experience was gone and the connection to the consciousness was severed. I was being pushed out into an abundance of senses, it was an over load, it was too bright and too loud.

X-X-X

To be continued……….

Everything will change

..................Nothing in this world is yours, everything and everyone are just fooling around. No one has a plan, no is playing anything. What you think you had yesterday wont be with you today and you wouldn't know what will happen tomorrow.Everything will change. There is hardly anything that is yours, you will loose her, you will loose him. What you love, what you like will be long gone. The circumstances develop without your say, all you do is after there is nothing more to do. You will be made to let go.On the hope of having a say, for some choice and mostly for the love of everyone and everything that made you ponder the very same-thing you carry on. Do remember everything will change and nothing in this world is yours.......................

A Proposal

...........It was a cool breezy night, as he looked out of the window his eyes shone more than the moon. Dressed to kill, he goes out pocketing the symbol of all his warmth and affection, the symbol of respect and admiration, of purity and truth in his love. That spark in his eyes were probably only matched by her charming smile, breathtakingly beautiful! was the very purpose of this mans existence. As they made there way in, the existence pauses his purpose and puzzles her with the inevitable question "Dear, I won't ask questions because silence will follow,But I just want to know how long my heart will be hollow" as true as they both were the answer was there even before the beginign of all time, before me and before you, before even them and it was an answer to complete his existence, and a meaning to the purpose...............


The sentence in quotes, was found somewhere on the net.

File liFe

Contd......

If one has to try and understand the system, the basic way to start is by giving definitions to all the various components of it ....some of the definitions are already in place (referring to the various things that classically come under the purview of science).

And when you try to define life the problems in doing so are many..........just  after all but a little straining of our teny tiny brains,the conclusion might be that life is nothing special its just matter........but here I am and here you are thinking about the very same thing whereas an atom, does not on its own do such a thing...........now, immediately one might ask does an amoeba think of life?.......well it does not think of life as we do but it does think of its own survival....

and at this point exactly we might have hit upon a basic definition for life.....Is life something that tends to promote itself?.......

a simple mathematical description of this would be;  life is a function (of what? for a later discussion) that always tends to increase its value...i.e if its a function of time then ...at say our reference natal time it is 1 then some time later it trans forms itself to 2 then to 3 ...so on and so forth....As I said there are a great many number of problems with this.....but for now lets just stick with it and see how far we can go about explaining the various phenomenon around us..........

System guide

And I was wondering the other day,( having declared the world around me as a system or rather a combination of various systems in the previous post) is it possible to arrive at some ground rules for the functioning of the system.....for some systems  we already know the rules, for example we already know about the system called gravity and what its behaviour is and are not mystified by it in fact we use this knowledge to forward our own causes about this system we are at quite an advanced stage wherein we are able to predict this systems behaviour with precision of a mathematical equation...but originally we started off with the ground rule that gravity is some kind of force existing between masses that pull them towards each other.....and what I want to figure out is something of that sort . What guides life?.....the immediate answer I suppose I would get  if i conduct a survey among the masses is that ...God guides life...but that is not answering the question its just giving up on it ( most of the things since the cave man time that one couldn't explain have been given the name God)...and I realized as I was reading what was just written, I used the word life in my question.....and before we move any further....what is life?....................
........(to be continued .... much later)

The system and life

In the previous post of mine I had concluded that as long as I am inside the system...a complete understanding of it is impossible....we could be just stones in the mortar of a bigger universe, I thought.
But, one can, without even thinking much, question this statement. Why is it not possible to completely understand the system?....

.....until recently i had been thinking that if X was part of the system that was trying to understand the system then it would ultimately be left with the last piece that is itself 'X' to understand and that it was impossible to understand oneself, hence the knowledge of the system remains incomplete. But that last statement is as good as saying and blindly believing without questioning that "Steve Martin is the next bond hero!!" ......

Now how do I say that it is possible.....well

Say the X in question is divided into infinitesimally small parts (as small as one wants) each part being dx...now there are n number of dx say dx1,dx2,.....now dx1 can understand the rest of X-dx1 and dx2 can understand the rest of X-dx2 so the collective integral of all the dx has a complete understanding.... i.e the collective of dxi's understands itself i.e X understands X.....
(Mind you this proof holds true only if one doesn't question the fact that for somebody outside a system it is possible to understand it, questioning this will lead to a different discussion with the same end result that i have here).

so we can now gaily say that It is possible to understand the system.

And now that we have an enlightened X lets ask it "Ex!,hey Ex! do u know why you are in this system?"

EX Bewildered by this question ....will try and find out about the system that put it inside this system.....(realizing that it was part of a bigger system) and extending the same logic as above it understands this completely and gets bewildered again...and the loop goes on.......


Ultimately what this proves is that a complete understanding of the system is not possible and that is because it is infinite and not for any other reason...... (To be continued)

Unfinished

I exist, I exist, I exist,
Day in and day out I exist
and why I think ,
may be for thinking all day long why I exist?,
though I don't find answers I still exist
and wonder why?

people said..we exist to reach god...
I wonder if god knows why he exists

Does an ant know why it exists?
does a plant know why it exists?

Do you know why you exist?

yet you exist and so do I...
to what end and purpose, knowing not,

puzzling and strange the problem persists,

and what shall happen when I cease to exist and get out of the system.
intriguing the possibilities.......Dire the consequences for the one who loves and cares.
In-spite of all this, get tangled I will in all of life...seeking knowledge seeking joy..not being crazed and unhappy ,as its certain I wouldn't know.


- VISA